Full-Blown Agony: My Battle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by quick stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe pain around a single eye that persists for several hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with sudden, excruciating pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose bizarre treatments for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, scientists published the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

National guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment alone. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Scott Downs
Scott Downs

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